May 2010
23 posts
Next World: Day Dreamer →
You know those dreams where you’re falling off something or out of something and in mid fall you wake up? You’re first few moments are spent in dazed panick as the reality of the fall hits you. Then you’re slowly introduced to the realization that in reality you weren’t falling.
It’s like I’m…
no equilibrium.you know?my fall is in loop.i keep falling and falling,the wind collapsing my...
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i love the birds that sing in rain.
the sound of heavy raindrops collapsing into the thirsty earth.
the smell of satisfied soil soaking in rainwater.
the chiming of resilient birds,not hiding from the shower.
i would like to be one of those birds.
those fearless,proud birds,singing their songs.
i sing to myself instead,wrapped in false warmth.
i’d far rather be wrapped in your arms.
or,of course,soaring among the...
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please accept my apology:
i’m coming to you
completely me
i’ve got one last lie
but i’m coming clean.
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i feel like i’m trying
to save something that’s failing
a lung that is punctured
a wound that’s not healing
the air is not flowing
the scab is not forming
i feel like i’m trying
to save something that’s dying
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let's get real with ourselves.
let’s just quit.
i’m not alright with this.
too many stuck in falsified bliss.
i really wanna just quit.
rehearsals now.
flowers.
big sweater.
little dress.
backpack backpack.
sunnies.
time to go.
water?
check.
music?
check.
all is well.
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thin.
all i see.
all i want.
breaking rules.
nothing works.
send me back.
send me back.
broken pieces.
nothing works.
i just want
you to see.
what you see
is not the real me.
i’m not a happy,
pretty thing.
but a marionette
on a broken string.
make me better.
fix this mess.
my scarlet letter
is my constant distress.
you’ll never know.
you’ll never see.
this false...
I need an ambulance.
I took,
I took the worst of the blow.
Send me a redeemer.
Let me know,
If i’m gonna be alright.
Am I gonna be alright?
I know how it usually goes.
I know how it usually goes…
-Eisley
Cody,twinny,
I don’t like that you’re stuck being sad sometimes.
I do wish I had better words to help,but I know that some things just are.
All I can really do is continue loving you for the amazing person I know you are.
You’re forever my favorite twin.
I pray for you.
I hope that you can feel my words.
You’re terribly important to me.
I know that one day you’ll be happy.
...
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it's harder now.
it’s harder to breathe.
it’s harder to speak.
it hurts me to think that you feel otherwise.
i mean what i say.
i’m honest with you.
i just can’t breathe.
i can’t breathe.